Why I let that little number bother me.

You are more than a number on the scale. Most postive thing to learn about weightloss, weight fluctuates between 3 to 5 pounds any given day, taken in how much carbs how much water you drank, the workouts, or hormones. Scales are also not 100% one can say one number the one at the doctor will say more. So take inches that is what counts and what you feel in clothes.


Here comes why I let the numbers get to me, I know all that is stated above, I know weight wont come off in a big clump, it takes time, and muscle weights more. However having been a number my whole life the new way of thinking is had. To be heavy my whole life, to be told if I weight a certain number I would be pretty,I needed to be this weight to be healthy. So my scale shows a weight gain some days it puts me in a funk.

It's ok to be in a funk in my opinion, its what you do with that funk is the problem. I have been going at this hard for two years, I never once said oh well and over ate, I have under ate and I gave up all my favorite things.Gallon and half water everyday, salads every meal, egg whites, protein shakes, healthy and clean eating, very rare having a cheat meal, following that 80% of the weight loss needs to come from changing my eating, other 10% is working out everyday, cardio, strength, weights. I rest enough during the day at I do at least 30-50 minutes a day to make sure my body has movement. it helps.

So with all that having tinny set backs puts me in this oh god i will never reach my goal weight, because it all boils down to that healthy number, and mine is 146. will i stay there probably not. I am 5'3" Id like to be 130. but 146-155 I am going to be comfortable with. And 6 months ago I was half way there. Which is all my medications fault and my body. I'd like to weight in and not be looked at funny. My healthy comfortable number is different than the next body, cause we are all different. Sorry buttercup but we all have different bodies, just cause one thing works for me, doesn't mean it will for you. Find your own number.


I already have parts of me that I love, but its like telling someone who is striving to win a race that its ok if they never finish, I plan on finishing.I enjoy this fitness journey, I love seeing my weight numbers get heavier, and my run times get down and how some times I see muscles.


So I am going to let that number on the scale drive me crazy, I think its where I get my motivation from. Proving the scale fucking wrong.I might get into a funk over it for a while but it's not me saying I am giving up, its me being upset that all this hard work and there is a block there. Hopefully the medication will help fix my thyroid and I can stop hitting the brick wall.

If you have ever tried really hard to do something but have yet to reach a goal and get frustrated at the journey you are taking but keep going, then that is success. giving up or starting over and over gets you no where.